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Hide Your Rodents, Kids!

10 Friday Mar 2006

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I know I’m overdue for an update.  But…for now, here’s an update on Lenore, my ebon-scaled serpentine companion.  She is now 55 inches long, quickly approaching five feet.  She just ate two rats…I can still remember when she ate baby mice.  They grow up so fast!

Lenore, big, crealing down my pale arm. 

A boy and his snake…

Can you spot Jack Skelington in this pic? Lenore has… 

The flash really took away her deep colors. 

These pics came before her feeding and she started to show just a little too much interest in my feet.

Mom?

03 Friday Mar 2006

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Well…

…it’s not every day that you find out your mom is wanted in Mexico…

Weird.

In other news, while all of you were sleeping last night, I was trying to figure out what font a fallen angel would talk in.

Spirals

01 Wednesday Mar 2006

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So today was fun.  I was up in the morning for a change.  I got to speak in a creative writing class.  I think I might have made a little sense here and there.  OK…on to epic excerpt time!

 

In the past several posts I’ve posted (or linked to) the prologue (with the little girl and the ash phantom), an Interlude or two, and the beginning of “Book One” the first of the poetic chapters – wherein Mama Nancy (the voodoo priestess) contacts a mischievous and dark spirit, Crow, to be her Muse.  I didn’t post much of the chapter…but suffice it to say, she eventually gets Crow to reluctantly help out (after a major sacrifice on her part).

 

Then there are some more of the prose interlude chapters.  Including this one…

Interlude:  Spirals and Echoes

 

“Who will teach the young

the names of the ancient ones?”

-Johnny Clegg, “African Dream”

 

 

The shape of the universe is the spiral.


Time and space curve inward, forming spirals; spirals combine, forming larger spirals, and combine, forming larger spirals until imperceptible.  The collage of creation.


Patterns echo.  All things echo.  Patterns, events, figures rise and fall, rise and fall, again and again, from the dark water.  Greater splash, greater ripples.  New forms, new names, but the patterns remain and echo like bat screams.  Patterns echo and spiral, curve inward and echo, repeat and vary, repeat and combine, forming larger spirals, until they become imperceptible.  The collage of creation.


Eternity would have to squint to see the bigger picture.


Nature pulses with patterns.  The veldt, the hunting ground, echoes across creation, different forms and different names, but the pattern and the rules remain.


Now see the hunting ground.  See the veldt.  See the occasional tree, thorns tearing the wind.  See the sweeping burn of yellow grass, the smell of the waterhole, the sun, shadows.  Always, there are prey, prancing or stomping through the brush, bright eyes unaware of danger and death.


A jackal, all cagey and gaunt, shivers in the shadows, eyeing the prey hungrily, flinching at every hyena laugh and howl.


A leopard, lean and lithe, lopes out of the dark.  The jackal flees.  Eyeing the prey, the leopard licking his lips, shows his white teeth.


A lion, sinewy and strong, stalks out of the dark.  From the collective pool of instinct and the memory of his fathers, the leopard recalls, the lion is bigger, the lion is stronger, the lion is death.  The leopard flees.  Eyeing the prey, with hungers to slake, the lion stalks boldly; he’s pissed on the rocks; he’s marked his territory.


The jackal flees the leopard.


The leopard flees the lion.


The lion rarely flees.


All claws and fangs and hunger, the lion stalks towards the prey . . .


A bat scream echoes off a cave wall.


Now see the hunting ground.  See the city.  See the towering buildings, lightning rods giving storm clouds the finger.  See the sweeping grid of gray, the smell of mingling ethnic foods, the lights, shadows.  A pack of children prance and stomp through the sprawl, the night after Halloween, the Day of the Dead, smashing pumpkins and eating sugar-skulls, bright eyes unaware of danger and death.


A crack-fiend, all cagey and gaunt, shivers in the shadows, eyeing the children hungrily, flinching at every car horn and inner-demon howl.


A pedophile, lean and lithe, lopes out of the alley in a yellow van.  The crack-fiend flees.  Eyeing the children, the pedophile licks his lips, shows his white teeth.


A gang-banger, sinewy and strong, stalks out of the alley.  The instincts and memories of the pedophile shriek, bigger, stronger, death.  The pedophile flees.  Eyeing the children, with drugs to sell, the gang-banger stalks boldly; he’s painted the walls; he’s marked his territory.


The crack-fiend flees the pedophile.


The pedophile flees the gang-banger.


The gang-banger rarely flees.


All bullets and chemicals and hate, the gang-banger stalks towards the children . . .


But here, the bat echo splits off the time-wall, diverges, varies.


The gang-banger freezes.  Manifested, behind the children, in the shadows of the opposing alley, stands Mama Nancy – tall, thin form wrapped in home-woven clothes – head topped in wide-brimmed hat, transfixed with a silver-skull pin – shock of white, webby hair, distending from the back of the dark hat – long, spindly fingers dancing at her sides – mocha skin two shades darker in the shadows of hat and alley.  No one is really sure how old the hoodoo woman is.


The gang-banger stands reflected in the impenetrable purple shades.  The shades mark her station – priestess of the streets.  Mama Nancy shakes her head.


No.


The gang-banger’s lips curl in a snarl, gold-plated fangs gleam.  His hand dips into his jacket, eyes promising artillery and noisy death.


Mama Nancy’s lips curl in a grin.  Her right hand dips into her coat, pulling out a nondescript, red cloth doll, the purple shades promising things unspeakable.


The gang-banger advances, clicking off the safety.


Mama Nancy’s left hand pulls out a lighter and clicks it, child safety already broken off, the flames dance high, threatening to lick the doll.


The children turn back and forth, back and forth, eyes now aware of danger and death.


The gang-banger pauses.  From the collective pool of memory and urban mythos, he recalls, Mama Nancy uses the right hand and the left.  As a child, his mother told him, I hear she talks to spiders.  Once, a derelict, dying under his knife gasped, they say Mama Nancy speaks to the dead – they say Mama Nancy speaks for the dead – and sometimes, they say, the dead walk for her.  They still whisper stories about what she did to Alley-Cat Jack.


The gang-banger flees.  The gang-banger rarely flees.


The children greet Mama Nancy, for she is feared and she is loved, and she stays with them, eyeing the shadows.


“Tell us a story,” says the youngest girl, Tamara.


“I tell you a story about story.  Do you children know what today is?”


A boy, Miguel, nods, his mouth still full of sugar-skulls, “Day of the Dead.”


“Yes.  It’s also Papa Ghede’s day.  He’s the saint, the spirit of graveyards.  Today I lit a candle for him.  In Haiti, in Vodou, we pray to him to get our stories.”


Tamara scrunches her nose, “From a dead guy?”


The purple shades point down, reflecting the little scrunched face.  “Papa Ghede is the Loa of death, but he’s also a jokester.  He likes to laugh.  He say bad words, but he’s not mean.  He loves everybody.  He loves the ladies and he’s a sexy man.  He loves children and he protects children.  Ghede hates to take little girls and boys.  When little ones sick, that’s his job, to help.  We also pray to Ghede for stories, because he talks to our ancestors.  He speaks in the voice of all Fathers and sings the song of all Mothers, all the way back to Eve and Adam.  In Haiti, in Vodou, that’s how we get our history.  We hear a story, word-of-mouth, as many times as possible, from as many people as possible.  Word-of-mouth – again and again.”


“That’s history?” says Edward, the oldest, “What about facts?  What about statistics?”


Mama Nancy spits on the pavement and the children all jump as if she’s thrown lightning.  “Boy, in this life there are three kinds of lies:  little lies, big lies, and statistics.”

The street priestess paces, throwing her arms up to the building tops.  “In this place, history is a thin, straight line, drawn by victors.  Facts can lie, Boy.  You want truths.”


“But . . . stories can lie,” whines Edward.


“That’s right child.  But if you hear a story, enough times, from enough folk, you start to get the truth, in little bites.  You’ll know the sound, in the ear.  A big story is too big to hear once.  You have to hear it again and again, from as many perspectives as possible.  Lots of little stories combine to make a big story.  You tell it, not in straight lines, but in spirals.”


And Mama Nancy tells the children stories, all the while, listening to the rhythms of the city, the hunting ground, alert for ominous vibrations on the thin, silken strands of sound.


None come.


Eventually, mothers call out, and the children disperse, one by one.  The last one finally leaves the hunting ground and only then does Mama Nancy wander back into the alleys and the dark.


“I have a story to tell,” she mutters, even though she’s alone, save a spider hanging at eye level.  “I have a story to make.  Not in straight lines . . . in spirals.”


It is the shape of DNA, the double-helix.  The ayahuasca vine of South America grows in a spiral and induces hallucinations of twin serpents coiling around each other.  Shaman understood these to be the basis of physical existence, long before scientists discovered the gene.  Paintings on cave walls show the twin snakes, one black and one white, the active and the passive, twisting in a double-helix.  They call it the sky ladder.


The cosmic serpent spirals through space.


The shape of life and molecules, snail shells, hurricanes and galaxies rotating in the void.  The flight path of a carrion bird, circling over the dead.  Spirals combine, forming larger spirals until imperceptible.


Patterns repeat.


Events echo.


The shape of the universe is the spiral.

I was tagged

27 Monday Feb 2006

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Four jobs you have had in your life:

1. Actor
2. Writer
3. Magician
4. Township Assessor’s field agent

Four movies you would watch over and over:

1. Dark City
2. Wolf
3. The Nightmare Before Christmas
4. The Crow

Four places you have lived:

1. Island Lake, IL
2. Eureka, IL
3. Springfield, IL
4. Wheeling, IL (This is kind of boring…while I’ve visited places across the globe…I’ve only ever lived in IL)

Four TV shows you love to watch:

(I don’t watch a lot of regular TV…which says something for the TV shows I do watch. I should also mention that Reality TV should go back to the flaming pits whence it came)
1. Adult Swim on Cartoon Network (many shows I like there)
2. X-Files
3. Boston Legal
4. The Simpsons

Four places you have been on vacation:

1. Key West, FL
2. Senegal, Africa
3. Athens, Greece
4. L.A.

Four websites you visit daily:
1. http://www.myspace.com
2. http://www.google.com
3. http://www.neilgaiman.com
4. http://www.kingsnake.com

Four of my favorite foods:

1. double decker pizza
2. crab rangoons
3. General Tso (sp?) chicken
4. Rum!!!

Four places I would rather be right now:

1. Key West
2. reading poetry on a dark stage in a smoky room
3. in a pumpkin patch
4. under your bed…

Four friends I am tagging that I think will respond…..

1. YOU! I tag you. You who are reading this, I specifically tag you. If you say I cheated…well…type it up anyway, or I might just come out from under your bed…

There’s a junkyard in the underworld that has my darling…

27 Monday Feb 2006

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Days like this, I really miss my convertible. I miss ya baby! I suppose it’s what I get for naming a car Persephone. Maybe I’ll go into the car underworld and find her (and maybe that’ll be the subject of my next epic poem).

I got a replacement hat today…but it’s not as good as the other one.

Well, I’m in Eureka now. If anyone wants to hang, give me a buzz, I’ll likely be at Mikas, drinking coffee and writing or figuring out what I’m going to say in the writing class tomorrow.

I feel so naked…

27 Monday Feb 2006

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So . . . my fedora has been hat-napped. It’s in the back of a friend’s car and there is no time to go over and get it. It looks like I shall be returning to Eureka with a naked head.

That’s right. Back to Eureka.

Nick and I did not get all the things we wanted to get accomplished with the magic show, over the weekend. So I’ll be spending this entire week in EC (and, as Val Perry emailed me today…I’ll be making a guest appearance in a certain writing class).

In other news, I met with my artist, Daina today (she just got back from Germany) and we talked over some concepts (everything from old, Medieval style letter heads and page borders, to stained glass). So, my epic poem should be a pretty looking little book (BIG book) when all is said and done.

Now Nick and I got to hit the road…

…due South…

Tools…Word Count…OUCH!

26 Sunday Feb 2006

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Out of curiosity, I did a word count of my entire epic poem, and my computer slapped me.

a thousand words is worth a picture

26 Sunday Feb 2006

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Tomorrow…that is to say, today, I get to go to Chicago and meet with my would-be artist for my epic poem (she apparently already has some work done). She even said she does medieval letter heads.

This is cool. And that was a passive sentence. Oh…and so was that. Crap…that was too…

Ah!

WARNING

24 Friday Feb 2006

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So yesterday I received a very cryptic warning, over the phone.

 

She couldn’t tell me, it was a professional thing, the object or the source of the rumor – just that someone at school is coming down hard on  us creative writing cretins – again she couldn’t give me specifics, but I’d have to trust her.

 

And I do.

 

My advisor then told me that, while she knows all the research I did and the places I’ve been, others might not and she doesn’t want someone thinking I’m just white boy suburbanite writing about voodoo and other things I don’t know anything about – so,  in the forward for my epic poem (which I still have to write…the forward that is), she advised me to really stress everything I’ve done, more than I normally would, to help tear down any prejudice, that some have, thinking the Creative Writing majors and masters are lazy little con artists who don’t do any real work, the real work that, say, a literary English major might do (or even better…someone in Math or Science or History).

 

While this can sometimes, certainly be true…when told to me directly, those kinds of thoughts usually make my teeth grind, just a little, and through a slightly forced smile say, Well, someone has to write the things they meekly study.  And I wonder if they’d ever cut into themselves, just to see what would drip onto a page, if they ever faced off against self-esteem and self doubt (nightly), taking that risk of finding out that you indeed don’t have anything worth while to say, and seeing what is on the other side – or had they just traced the phantom paths of others who had done so.

 

But then…I feel like I’m taking myself too seriously and I usually laugh at myself and shrug my shoulders and think of all the times that I really did get away with something, con my lazy but past real work in grad school.

 

So my advisor and I talked about other things I should consider in my second draft.

 

And that was that.

 

It was one of the more clandestine calls I can remember getting.

 

It left me feeling a little bit…..excited.  The creative writing classes never had a very competitive spirit (we all wrote different stuff) and theatre felt only marginally more competitive…and any real, competitive spirit is more or less a dim memory of sports in high school.  So I find the prospect of having to defend this little monstrosity I’ve given birth to…exciting.

 

Better get to work on that Forward…

Uh-Oh

24 Friday Feb 2006

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You Are 96% Evil

You’re the most evil person you know.
The devil is even a little scared of you!
How Evil Are You?

…………..just kidding….hehe….that’s not my real score.

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